Underground eXperts United File 222

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Underground eXperts United

 · 26 Apr 2019

  

 
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                         Underground eXperts United 

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         [  Five Poems  ]                            [  By Mr Dude  ] 

 
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                            F I V E   P O E M S 
                                by Mr Dude 

 
 This is one of my most recent poems, and one of my best I'm told... 

FEAR 
why is it that this madness strikes 
as if i should be sleeping 
i feel like a child, sneaking 
awake too late to watch a scary movie 
these words twist and grind out of me 
impure, tainted, and yes, i am afraid 
these words shoot forth like a shot 
like so many pretty fleeting things 
leaving an exit wound that is my life 
my heart, and yes, again, my fear 
i was not quite asleep, on the verge 
on the threshold of lucidity, of dream! 
and i let it slip from me, mindlessly 
without a thought, indulging in my fear 
afraid that there is no god, afraid of truth 
afraid of being alone, afraid of love 
afraid that i am not what i say i am 
afraid that she does not love me or care 
or that no one will or that nothing is real 
afraid to be what i really am 
afraid of nothing 
so i sneak, fearful of discovery 
excited to know, i am a child 
and all that's left of that fleeting moment 
between wakefulness and sleep 
are these words, and yes, i am afraid 
they're meaningless... 

 

Here's one from my Thelema Lodge O.T.O. days... 

MASKS 
there is no blood 
there is no cup 
there is no sky 
when i look up 
there is no dark 
not even light 
i no longer have 
the strength to fight 
the snake can't strike 
the dove won't fly 
and I am living 
this terrible lie 
the temple has burned 
down to the ground 
i stop to listen 
there is no sound 
the egg lies broken 
the babe is dead 
as dreams of life 
run through my head 
stillborn and mute 
not even a chance 
only the masks 
left here to dance 
visions of joy 
let sorrow reveal 
there's nothing for 
the masks to conceal... 

 

Here's a couple straight from the heart... 

PIECES 
no one understands me 
the way that I love 
for no reason at all 
without limit or fear 
my heart is suicidal 
burning up in flames 
how it keeps on beating 
when its torn in two 
or three or a thousand 
pieces scatter away 
until nothing is left 
nothing left for myself 
and I cannot afford to cry 
because there is yet more 
and I fall again and again 
into your arms my lover 
will we meet tomorrow? 
in a different place 
with other faces and names 
loving until there is nothing 
and the world has gone away 
I do remember you my love 
and I recognize your eyes 
black and cold, inviting 
the gateway to my death 
a thousand graves lie open 
waiting for pieces of my heart 
and still I am unafraid 
even though I am alone... 

 
JEALOUS 
The jealous ones they fear love 
and can never possess it 
or control it or make it go away 
and when it does cross their path 
they consume it and waste it 
for lesser petty things 
they chain it down and beat it 
and love is never free 
the jealous ones, afraid 
that they will never know love 
and yet chase love away... 

 

Here's one for those afraid of love and/or sanity 

TRADERS 

i'd give my soul to know 
what hurt you so much 
my heart cannot imagine 
what hurt you so badly 
that you won't let me 
give you the love 
that you deserve and need 
i can't rape you 
and i have no soul 
i traded it away 
for a pack of smokes 
to that awful man 
you know the one 
he took your love away 
and sold it for a carton 
and now he has something 
that he cannot use 
and we are all bereft 
but still i love you 
it's too damn bad 
you won't let it mean anything 
it's too damn bad 
i'll never know why 

 
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