Activist Times Inc. kendra

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Activist Times Inc

 · 25 Apr 2019

  

A Poem 
  by Kendra 

To Be Published by ATI In Three Parts. 
Here's Part I. (very long) 

When you open your eyes 
To the people who sleep 
And sell you their life 
As if we can keep going on... 
Leading our lives divided 
There’s comfort in silence I know 
Who says you can’t be alone 
With everyone who’s ever known 
How full of hollow it’s grown 
When we’ve risen up 
Rose above 
What is hate and what is love 
They are the same 
So is everything 
And find the peace 
That’s underneath 
Tangled with chaos 
And all the grief we feel 
When we live our lives 
Outside of life 
The slumber that is my bride 
Because our thoughts intertwined 
Is not what you think is right 
What is life? 
What is life 
If you don’t even try 
But trying brings nothing in time 
All along on the ride 
Will you learn or be blind 
Both may rip you away from divine 
Crawling through life 
You may never find what is yours 
If you close up or take it all in 
Who can ever win 
Cut your losses and grin 
And live while there’s life to live 
Carve your path 
Leave life intact 
I want to be blind 
But those reasons are mine 
I don’t want to see outside 
And lose the light that resides 
In the words we often hide 
Cause we have to prove 
And have pride 
And strive to be alive 
 Atop all others 
Is when 
We fall into death again 
Strangers you are my friends 
We just haven’t talked yet 
We just cancelled debts 
That we all know we owe 
Our mother said so 
They gave us life 
But not our free will 
Something alive 
That never stays still 
And who says you’re here forever? 
Chasing the youth 
We’re born to lose 
This "god" is in you 
And what’s evil is too 
Chasing the laughter that fades 
When what’s inside you stays 
Till you fall away 
What will you think when you lay 
Seconds away from change 
And relearn what you’ve been played 
And interpret in your own way 
Why you’re here 
What you’ll leave 
For those to receive 
Will you have nothing to give but 
A house full of junk 
You didn’t even need 
But you worked 
But not merely feed 
But to feed your greed 
And left a monumental funeral plot 
A testament to how you bought 
Everything that mattered to you 
To show others what you could do 
With those paper devils 
That became all of you 
Working for the sake of working 
Making money so you can spend 
Then make it all over again 
Everything that seems flawed 
But the beauty gets lost 
Don’t love 
Assume that you have won 
Consume 
Be near to 
But don’t be close 
Inhale like a ghost 
Anything beyond your nose 
Is something you’ll never know 
No 
No 
Let it glow 
The snakes chasing it’s tail 
And he’s swallowed it whole 
break the cycle 
and save your tale 
others might tell 
pass it on down 
procreation well it’s a step on the ladder... 

like the sex 
or the baby 
look what you’re doing it for 
is it so you can tell them when they see 
they cannot change the world 
and you see yourself in them... 
or you see what you lost sight of 
your child 
your beacon of love to the world 
not just another 
who’ll live in this hole 
nurture them 
let them cut away 
that is the path they will take 
if your life turns out to be fake 
and the see through the cracks 
in all things 
Do you 
Don’t you 
Reel in the coil 
How is your filter? 
Has it been soiled 
You’ve been spoiled 
But not right rotten 
You write down 
"stop it" 
but it’s always the same topic 
do be/don’t be 
too myopic 
is there 
too broad 
when it’s all connected 
There’s light in generations 
That can’t be stomped out 
Because it’s passed on to people who know 
When into place falls 
All we’ve fallen from 
Bring truth to your days 
And thought to all the deeds 
And angry optimism 
Paves the path to inner needs 
That are shared in all these souls 
Of people ready to go 
But stay while they can 
So others can know 
Anything that is worth anything 
But what do we really need 
That hasn’t been had 
I am so glad 
That I’m being had 
In this world that’s a sham 
Ride on wave while you can 
This reality 
Failing project as such 
I only don’t care 
Because I care too much 
They say remain industrious 
As the days solidify and fluster us 
Who remains oblivious? 
The ones who shut themselves up 
No words in their shell without doors 
Eyes aren’t even for feeling anymore 
Just something we cast to the floor 
When we’re ashamed. 
Their lives without trust 
There’s a cure for your sickness 
It’s shutting up 
And giving in 
When generations before you 
Tell you what you should do 
Do they have more answers then you 
It’s hard to admit 
But they fell away too 
Losing their youth 
It’s not about greys 
It’s about turning life 
Into black and white 
Look into eyes 
When they pass you by 
They’re calling out 
But who is home 
Inside your brain 
You just look away 
You don’t want to admit pain 
You can sugar coat it again 
Instead of bringing sweetness and comfort 
To say you’re not alone 
And this is growing up 
Some never do 
They really get stuck 
In what society says is the path to good life 
Educate, impregnate, purchase and die 
And teach your children well 
That they need to keep buying 
So all will be well 
There’ll be jobs for all 
But no real sustenance 
Just pennies saved to be re-spent 
And feed the economy 
And help turn out sludge 
In the form of waste 
In the form of hate 
Of words that fall from our mouths, 
As toxic as the space 
On which we run this race 
Nature knows its place 
And has found ways 
How? 
I can’t say 
How she survives 
The passing of time 
And pours through the cracks 
Of our concrete gold mine- 
We all want to say what we know 
You’re growing up tall 
But what has life shown 
You and all your dreams 
Sewing the seams 
To let others be 
This is what all music brings 
Rhetoric 
To cleanse and then- 
How can you trust them 
Is you can’t trust yourself 
The circular cycles 
That never find rest 
Go and be 
What you are best 
Yourself 
It’s underneath what you’ve been taught 
They just want to show you’re there all along 
Unless of course, they strung you along 
To help you sing 
Their very own song 
But it’s in you 
Because you’re a man 
Just find it while you can 
Slap the hand 
Hold the hand 
Whatever you think is real 
May not be but there are no deals 
To be made afterwards 
After all 
Unless of course there is 
But there’s heaven on earth if you live 
Death is your final way out 
Of struggle and all the doubt 
But live for the beauty and feed 
>From the knowledge that gave us our greed 
You want to breed 
You feel you should plant your seed 
Plant your life on the life of another 
Plan your life for mistakes and error 
And throw away the plans 
You land where you land 
When you fall away from the hand 
And raise your fist and start again 
Don’t be sorry for change 
If you want to be living 
Things can’t stay the same 
Because they never do 
But they always do 
I would not say it if it wasn’t true 
But words are just what we’ve been taught 
Do you see cycles that rot 
But rot brings life 
When on carcasses and ignorance 
You find life 
Welcome the sickness in you 
And do what you have to do 
And live without regret 
Expand you mind 
All will be fine 
In it’s inability to be fine 
You find what you find 
It’s not yours 
Share yourself 
 use your will 
See others wills 
Break down your walls 
We tumble and fall 
Because winter in our souls 
Makes us realize the light 
We all want our way 
So that makes us fight 
Never find peace while we might 
And if we didn’t crack 
How could we put together 
The pieces of our lives 
Forever whatever 
Live within your means 
See your mean...and your dreams 
Elevate yourself 
And get put down - 
Living in the stars 
With your feet on the ground 
All I ask is what was found 
When you looked inside yourself 
If you felt you could drown 
Because you ignored it 
And thought all was sound 
While In the salty seas 
That are you and me 
Vessels that give in 
And take out 
What we’re capable of 
The animals shoved off the shore 
That’s for sure 
They knew what we were in for 
When the floods came 
There’s a lesson within 
Do you sink or swim 
Will you fall from your own self again 
You’re thrashing in the sea 
When you don’t see 
And if you go under 
You’ll see our mother 
Is angry at father time 
Because we’ve been here on relatively finite line 
And millions of years of light 
We’ve cancelled because we’re in the right 
Insects carry on life 
We’re so much bigger 
But useless in the chain of life 
We take and we take and we 
Give only if we’ll receive 
And mosquitoes 
They make us bleed 
And the mosquitoes feed 
The forests 
That were once full of trees 
As nature tries to breathe 
Life into all we’ve killed 
The animal scat brings logic in fact 
They ate what they needed 
Gave a little back 
To start the cycle again 
We take it in 
Maybe get fat 
Flush away nutrients 
And we can’t get them back 
And we don’t care 
We used our free will 
To kill 
And expanding your mass 
But in life so temporary 
What really lasts 
Except our notions and thoughts 
Processes and faults 
Trials and doubts 
Beauty without 
Remorse for what others will think 
Nuclear war 
Is the rapture for sure 
As men fight for power 
At the cost of what’s pure 
It’s happened in history before 
To make the empires crumble 
And bring the people back to the land 
Cause people forgot they were only a man 
Amongst other men 
All are great 
Try the upperhand 
And seal our fate 
What makes you want to be great 
Or greater than the great I should say 
Those who say what they say 
And don’t try to throw it all away 
The tower of babel 
Is another tale 
of man’s need 
to be in the sky 
When all the air is in his mind 
Build it up 
And rub it out 
We’re high in the sky 
With our temples of stone 
Pillars for profit 
Smokestacks that smother 
And I wish I could speak the tongues of others 
Just to know what they think of our purpose 
We were made for tribal existence 
Like animals 
Like packs of wolves 
Travelling around 
And having just what we need 
Life 
We think it’s defined by what we can 
Hold 
We get sucked into mark downs 
But we’ve been sold 
Whoever denied that life wasn’t all frowns 
A smile is just a frown upside down 
Upset the cycles 
And turn it around 
I heard what goes around comes around 
What do you perpetuate? 
How you feel others are wrong? 
What is your song? 
You know the words 
But can we hum along 
Cause at the root of it all 
We know the tune 
But we add our own beats to create something new 
To bring our own point of view 
I how do we change the world 
When we only care about ourselves 
Absorbed by the suction 
Admit it 
Spit it all out 
Taste life again 
Your mouth 
Admit you worry for others because how you would feel 
If something happened 
Then you are real 
Admit things that show your place 
See your ugliness 
Before you find grace 
All is the same 
Maybe we’re just buying 
Into something that’s new 
In it’s antiquity 
Just be re-spewn 
If it didn’t matter 
Words would not have fit 
So easily together 
When will we all be 
A separate piece of one another 
You are my brothers but you live your own life 
I can’t control you 
I can if you can’t control yourself 
That is the danger of not being sound 
Others around 
Will try to pound 
Themselves into you 
The contradictions contained 
In the world we’ve barely sustained 
I could fight for this all day 
I see this in the insane 
The "sane" have become the lame 
They are the meek who’ll inherit the earth 
They’ll be left with their buildings 
And jerks 
And without all the small people 
Who kept the earth running 
Farming the land 
You’ll have your paper trails 
And your profits for what 
 A life with no purpose 
Or is it’s purpose to stop 
This bullshit that is 
Having people work in mines 
To be given the shaft by all those fine 
Uppercrust people who are sad 
And sick 
And it’s a not even a sickness worth revelling in 
Keep raping the earth to run all your cars 
As you travel on four wheels to nowhere that’s far 
Know where you’ll be it’s not far 
Crawling on all fours 
Begging the forgiveness of this earth you have ruined 
You are so arrogant you have assumed 
There is no life outside of you 
Are there other planets so capable of our productivity 
Possibly just incapable of such stupidity 
I only say it to see if you’ll look within 
When did life lose it’s resonance 
When will you lose and take hold of the innocence 
Sink or swim?